I just realized that I made a really good friend. He knows how to make me laugh and everything. Talk for ages and don’t worry about running out what to say.. But then by now, I would have fallen for him, but I haven’t. I have been for told not to open up to anyone so easily because in the end, I will get hurt. Yeah I have been there, done that, got hurt for not listening to that advice.. Yeah but I think to that advice that someone has told. And plus won’t work and it’s a bit disturbing in a way I guess.. His a good guy, a good friend. That’s all. Wish he knew that I don’t feel the same and was only a good friend. Yeah haha just wanted to say it, that’s all. Don’t want to go and hurt someone no more..
i had these two amazing friends of mine last year. one boy and one girl. he and i were like best friends but then he calls everyone best friends.. anyways he was there for me when i needed a shoulder to lean on, bitch about people together and make fun out of each other.. i thought we were going to be friends forever but forever is a word that can be broken so easily. he asked me out one day when i didnt feel the same way and i couldnt say no or yes but i said yes. we didnt last long because of me. started to think negative about him and my life was going down to the breaking point. then we ended it. still after we were pretty good friends but then i knew he would be going around spreading bad talk shit about me.. his the type too. months went by and he and i drifted and to the point we dont talk or meet up. then that moment i knew i lost a great friend because of my selfish actions.. another great, closet friend and i drifted apart. from being the point as best friends at school to being distant. she and i did everything together! shopping, hang at school, sleep overs, bitch, dnm and dance.. one day, she started to change and i didn’t like who she has become.. started to talk differently and act differently.. i just went with the flow so i wouldn’t upset her. i guess i was so desperate not to loose her that i didn’t notice that i started to hate her. its funny how two close friends can be so close and become arch enemies.. but we weren’t hating each other. it was a big understanding by me. she never talked to me for 2 weeks. those two weeks were the biggest miserable two weeks of my life !! i hated who she has become but i guess everyone changes several times in their life time aye. oh well i just got to live with it and learn how to move on.. there is no point on dwelling and grieving on about what has happened in the past.